// 11 years today. It still HURTS and I miss you more than anything. But I keep your memory alive by remembering the times we had together. I even gave Rhett your middle name. I know one day, I will see you again, but I miss you, so so so---MUCH! I try, each and every day to live the life I know you would want me too. To live for my kids and to make each day count. Even when the pain gets to be to much, I focus on them and those there for me who I know still share this pain with me. You were/are someone incredibly special!  I love you, Ed! Always and forever!

I know it's a bad idea

But how can I help myself?

Been inside for most this year

And I thought a few drinks, they might help

It's been a while, my dear

Dealing with the cards life dealt

I'm still holding back these tears

While my friends are somewhere else

I pictured this year a little bit different

When it hit February

I step in the bar, it hit me so hard

Oh, how can it be this heavy?

Every song reminds me you're gone

And I feel the lump form in my throat

'Cause I'm here alone

Just dancing with my eyes closed

'Cause everywhere I look I still see you

And time is moving so slow

And I don't know what else that I can do

So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

So I'll keep dancing with my

Delusion is here again

And I think you'll come home soon

A word brings me right back in

Then it's only me that's in this room

I guess I could just pretend

The colours are more than blue

But I lost more than my friend

I can't help but missing you

I pictured this month a little bit different

No one is ever ready

And when it unfolds, you get in a hole

Oh, how can it be this heavy?

Everything changes, nothing's the same

Except the truth is now you're gone

And life just goes on

So I'm dancing with my eyes closed

'Cause everywhere I look I still see you

And time is moving so slow

And I don't know what else that I can do

So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Oh, I keep dancing with my

They're shutting the bar

They're cleaning the floor

And everyone is already home

But I'm on my own

Still dancing with my eyes closed

'Cause everywhere I look I still see you

Time is moving so slow

And I don't know what else that I can do

So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Oh, I keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed

Eye-eye-eye-eyes

Oh, I keep dancing with my

 

Bella Black

|| Here if you need to talk ❤️

 

Xandria IronHead

// You have my sympathy. PM me if you need to vent.